This post was written before little Zain’s arrival and although my birth story will give you a glimpse into how I delivered, I thought this was an important discussion to have and would love to hear your thoughts!
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Early in my pregnancy, a patient’s mother of mine who is a Doula asked me what my birth plan was. Without hesitation, I happily exclaimed back “Drugs!” I’m fairly certain she thought I was joking, but I in no way was. My plan all along has been to get to the hospital in time for those delicious drugs. I was actually totally unaware of the existence of Birth Plan’s until I was pregnant enough for people to notice and ask me about mine.
Before I ever experience a contraction, I was certain I needed the medication. I’ve heard stories upon stories about how painful and excruciating the pain was prior to the epidural from so many friends and thought, “Why would I want to feel that?”
I’m a science based gal and realize that no matter what ideas I have in my head about how I want Labor and Delivery to go, I truly have no control. I trust the medical professionals in the room to make the best decision for me and my child. So, whether I want an epidural or to attempt a drug free delivery I know it’s not entirely up to me. My doctor asked me recently that in the case that everything goes smoothly and I could deliver without medication, would I want to?
Gosh, now I don’t know. The more I read about drug free deliveries and talk to friends that have done it, the less horrible it seems. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not a glutton for pain and deep down I think these women may have just blocked out the horrific suffering because they love their children so much.
I am however, someone who worries about rare side effects. Crazy things have happened to me before and although I don’t want to make the decision based on fear I do worry I’ll never feel the same. I also struggle with if I would really be able to do it. I don’t have the highest pain tolerance and am honestly scared I would tire from labor and not be able to push without drugs.
With little time to go, I’m still a bit torn and would love to hear your experience either way!